Ego Dialogues

When I was young, and heard "Comfortably Numb" by Pink Floyd, I associated it with the numbness of people to life. In order to survive, people became numb to things - comfortably numb, so that the 'machine of life' could run smoothly.
I asked questions, in order to understand that numbness, and was often told that I don't understand, that I can't understand - because of my age and inexperience.
I swore I would never become such an adult.
Now, as a grown up, whenever I hear that song it reminds me of that promise to myself.

I have been called sensitive by some people, I am considered strong by a lot of people, including some of those who call me sensitive. I know now that my "sensitivity" is simply a lack of numbness.

When something extra-ordinary touches me, the genuine reaction to that sensation isn't numbed down. I don't have any defensive mechanisms, tediously developed over time, to make me oblivious to outside stimuli. It doesn't make me incapable of being 'tough' when needed, but I can get emotional over a lot of things.
Kindness touches me, as does music. Some scenes in movies touch me. Words, in books or spoken, touch me, but more than anything else - injustice. Any kind of pretense, or falsehood - not to mention deception, lieing and/or scheming.

I have not become comfortably numb. If that equals being sensitive or emotional, well.. very good then.

Lyrics to 'Comfortably Numb', by Pink Floyd

Hello.
Is there anybody in there?
Just nod if you can hear me.
Is there anyone home?

Come on, now.
I hear you're feeling down.
Well I can ease your pain,
Get you on your feet again.

Relax.
I need some information first.
Just the basic facts:
Can you show me where it hurts?

There is no pain, you are receding.
A distant ship's smoke on the horizon.
You are only coming through in waves.
Your lips move but I can't hear what you're sayin'.
When I was a child I had a fever.
My hands felt just like two balloons.
Now I got that feeling once again.
I can't explain, you would not understand.
This is not how I am.
I have become comfortably numb.

Ok.
Just a little pinprick. [ping]
Therell be no more --aaaaaahhhhh!
But you may feel a little sick.

Can you stand up?
I do believe it's working. good.
That'll keep you going for the show.
Come on it's time to go.

There is no pain, you are receding.
A distant ship's smoke on the horizon.
You are only coming through in waves.
Your lips move but I can't hear what you're sayin'.
When I was a child I caught a fleeting glimpse,
Out of the corner of my eye.
I turned to look but it was gone.
I cannot put my finger on it now.
The child is grown, the dream is gone.
I have become comfortably numb.